dark grinder

In the darkest, tightest pit

My own mind just trapped me in

I am acking

I don't want your pitying eyes

Want to taste the peace beside

Someone who knows me

As I'm designed

Or else just grind me to a pulp

Digest all that I've ever had

Let me fucking die

I became impossible

Got to break into particles

In this hatefull place

Just like that

Psychogenic death is real

This doctor said

No, it isn't suicide

Not when you're depressed

You just let consciousness go 

Into an eternal rest

I don't want to leave you all

I don't wish to take my life away

But the act of giving up

And dying within days

Seems like something I might call my way

distant lovers

I have all the time 

To discover

How to live with my own thoughts

I cant have you

Not the first time

Still, I stay myself 

For long

Don't you worry

Someone needs to feel sad

I'll be floating

Untill good wave brings me back