Pluto in Scorpio generation

Oh my god, you clearly don't understand your own power and the power of Scorpio if you need to victimise yourself so much. Calling our generation a garbage can? I am not from the same generation then. And if you need it, let me trauma shame you right now, in advance, before your kids will. And I will do so, while having my moon opposed by my scorpio pluto -best placement for victimisation, according to many. 

Get over yourself. Pluto is a sheer power of choice. The "I will". 

So why don't you? Show them how wrong they are. Call them by their names and point out their discrepancies as you do. But hell, be proud of your finger pointing. You deserved it by taking all this sh*t from them, right? And then face the cost of disregarding their struggle. Because the cost is the realisation that you are just the same. Brute, half evil, self-involved nasty soul as everyone else. But the difference is that you OWN IT.

To be a Scorpio is to know how nauseating the reality of nature is, and going forward anyway, in spite of. Because we want to, because we CAN, because there isn't much choice as we don't really know how to cease to exist, do we? 

But then it's really  hard to f*ck with us, because owning and living through your pain is self empowerment in it's purest form. That's Scorpio. Cunning, black and white, driven. Not some victimised "trash can".  We simply don't repress our sh*t anymore, but it was always there, Bro. 

Moving on, if we talk about the generations, let's talk about people from across the globe and from every social stratum.

Diving into it - Leo Pluto not being traumatised? Are you kidding? 

Clearly, you must be speaking only about some priviliged parts of the american society that was not burdened by their parents post war PTSD and communistic dictatorships. The rest of the world was straight up loved from the behind emotionally and economically. About racial and gender and cultural disparities I will not comment on.

What about dreadful societal norms of their prime time, like obligatory mariage and children, going along with their parents vision of how life should look like, working hard and being a good citizen in the center of an "acceptable" life, contstant shaming for anything and everything, expectation to take care of your parents and the inability to break away from toxic family ties, religion guilt tripping them into obedience? Also, it was them who invented the sentence "It was just a joke, why do you take everything so personally??" We both know, it was their coping mechanism for being a constant dissapoitment to their parents.

Scorpio Pluto has none of this. We are very free to say and do whatever we want in terms of profession, family life and beliefs. We may HAVE WORKED for it, but our Virgo and Leo Pluto parents prepared us for it, planted the seed and let us be free. My parents certainly did. Now even gender and social roles had become optional. 

And that is also a burden, as it came out, so we look for someone to blame for our own lack of direction. But hopefully, at least, we will leave behind us, the world emotionally and spiritually more in tune, as we talk about our pain and trauma constantly. Someone has to, I agree. But we are not the only victimized ones here.

Capricorn respects Scorpio deeply. There will be no shaming from capri children. And btw, what is that trauma again? What are they supposed to shame in us?

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the psycho of love

From the peaceful ocean

through the tank of wishes

to the poisonous pond - the psycho of love

the world has made me crazy

so now I'm after you

give me all I want

or I will spoil your roots

maybe that's the tale

of the opposites we hold

you can rip your chest out

lie like a mat at the door

they will take it,

they will take it all

corrupted world, we try to enfold

yet the truth is simple

we come here to be worn

live it

scream it

pray for god

you wanted me in shackles

but I'll be held no more

George R. R. Martin is also a woman

The day before yesterday, I finished watching Game of Thrones again, this time from beginning to end. Spoilers below, so if you haven't seen it, be advised. How many characters does the author of the series have to be able to get so much out of himself? He describes them in such a way that you can actually relate to them. Even Joffrey. I think that's what I love most about this series, apart from the dragons flying to the music of Ramin Djawadi. I love it because it frees me from my personal mental shackles.

And thank you George R.R. Martin for being such an amazing woman too. My personal favorite is Arya, who is learning to let go of her identity, prejudices, and naivety. She accepts pain in order to understand who she really is and fulfill her destiny.

Cersei, who replaces her lack of love, respect, and fear of loss with a completely blinding lust for power, leading to the downfall of her family.

The unceremonious Olenna, who sees, speaks, and acts according to her will. A pillar of authenticity and self-confidence.

Sansa, who in perhaps the most brutal way wakes up from her dreams and illusions to be able to distinguish truth from lies and firmly express what she believes is right.

And then there is Daenerys, an idealist and ultimately a tyrant, whom I understand best, I think, because her will was twofold. Her claims were justified, her grievances and her path to reversing her fate were undeniable and spectacular, but her dream of absolutism was just as real. Again, she was full of anger and fear. I'm glad she was consumed by fury, that she burned that city of hypocrisy, and I know she had to die for her ideals to become reality.

She symbolized death and rebirth. With her death, magical projections and putting things on a knife's edge died too. I read somewhere that it was the throne that corrupted her, but it was in her. It had been building up for years, growing with what she saw in the world and with her power. And I identify with that. I felt joy at her unveiling, at the fact that her darkness could spill out. We so rarely see this in reality.

We are more likely to encounter male evil and violence (sorry, gentlemen with a conscience, but you know all too well what is happening in the world) and nothing balances it out, nothing brings relief and hope in a world full of violence, territorialism, and arrogance.

That's why we miss Daenerys' power. Her decision is a wonderful catharsis. It reminds me of the final scene in Dogville, when Grace decides to sentence the town to death, seeing the irredeemable ingratitude, pettiness, and inner ugliness of its inhabitants. Fortunately, GOT adds more power, glory, and justice to the matter. Kings Landing is not such an obvious target for revenge, and after all, our world is not such a “flea-ridden hole” as von Trier portrayed it.

Finally, I would like to focus on the said revenge.

From idealism to annihilation. Two sides of the same coin. As a self-proclaimed idealist, I know how risky and destructive absolute faith in ideals can be. It is easy to confuse them with values, which by their very nature must be rooted in reality and proven in practice. They benefit not only the idealist, but also those around them. Although they are an obvious consequence of ideals, they require discipline and conscious, courageous, everyday decisions. And when things go wrong, you have to listen to Ramin, or do something good, create something, pat yourself on the head, and eat pizza. Unfortunately, we cannot save the world with a single wave of our hand, if it can be saved at all. With this post, I would like to wish all my friends and strangers, women and men, all the best on March 8! May your ideals turn into values and actions.