From the peaceful ocean
through the tank of wishes
to the poisonous pond - the psycho of love
the world has made me crazy
so now I'm after you
give me all I want
or I will spoil your roots
maybe that's the tale
of the opposites we hold
you can rip your chest out
lie like a mat at the door
they will take it,
they will take it all
corrupted world, we try to enfold
yet the truth is simple
we come here to be worn
live it
scream it
pray for god
you wanted me in shackles
but I'll be held no more
The day before yesterday, I finished watching Game of Thrones again, this time from beginning to end. Spoilers below, so if you haven't seen it, be advised. How many characters does the author of the series have to be able to get so much out of himself? He describes them in such a way that you can actually relate to them. Even Joffrey. I think that's what I love most about this series, apart from the dragons flying to the music of Ramin Djawadi. I love it because it frees me from my personal mental shackles.
And thank you George R.R. Martin for being such an amazing woman too. My personal favorite is Arya, who is learning to let go of her identity, prejudices, and naivety. She accepts pain in order to understand who she really is and fulfill her destiny.
Cersei, who replaces her lack of love, respect, and fear of loss with a completely blinding lust for power, leading to the downfall of her family.
The unceremonious Olenna, who sees, speaks, and acts according to her will. A pillar of authenticity and self-confidence.
Sansa, who in perhaps the most brutal way wakes up from her dreams and illusions to be able to distinguish truth from lies and firmly express what she believes is right.
And then there is Daenerys, an idealist and ultimately a tyrant, whom I understand best, I think, because her will was twofold. Her claims were justified, her grievances and her path to reversing her fate were undeniable and spectacular, but her dream of absolutism was just as real. Again, she was full of anger and fear. I'm glad she was consumed by fury, that she burned that city of hypocrisy, and I know she had to die for her ideals to become reality.
She symbolized death and rebirth. With her death, magical projections and putting things on a knife's edge died too. I read somewhere that it was the throne that corrupted her, but it was in her. It had been building up for years, growing with what she saw in the world and with her power. And I identify with that. I felt joy at her unveiling, at the fact that her darkness could spill out. We so rarely see this in reality.
We are more likely to encounter male evil and violence (sorry, gentlemen with a conscience, but you know all too well what is happening in the world) and nothing balances it out, nothing brings relief and hope in a world full of violence, territorialism, and arrogance.
That's why we miss Daenerys' power. Her decision is a wonderful catharsis.
It reminds me of the final scene in Dogville, when Grace decides to sentence the town to death, seeing the irredeemable ingratitude, pettiness, and inner ugliness of its inhabitants. Fortunately, GOT adds more power, glory, and justice to the matter. Kings Landing is not such an obvious target for revenge, and after all, our world is not such a “flea-ridden hole” as von Trier portrayed it.
Finally, I would like to focus on the said revenge.
From idealism to annihilation. Two sides of the same coin. As a self-proclaimed idealist, I know how risky and destructive absolute faith in ideals can be. It is easy to confuse them with values, which by their very nature must be rooted in reality and proven in practice. They benefit not only the idealist, but also those around them. Although they are an obvious consequence of ideals, they require discipline and conscious, courageous, everyday decisions. And when things go wrong, you have to listen to Ramin, or do something good, create something, pat yourself on the head, and eat pizza. Unfortunately, we cannot save the world with a single wave of our hand, if it can be saved at all. With this post, I would like to wish all my friends and strangers, women and men, all the best on March 8! May your ideals turn into values and actions.
At some point I dindn't see you
And I had no faith in you
I was worried you'll be drowned
Tried to hold you near the ground
Thought you are too soft to live
Having no strenght to compete
I was wrong, I was wrong
Please forgive me
Please go on
Fathers are not second mothers. One parent have to be the stoic rock that children's emotional waves crash into. Someone has to teach those kids especially boys that the world is is...
That the world is what? We create the world.
Fathers should be themselves, they should be people. Evolve and learn. They should be curious about themselves, their children and their partners. Strength and resilience are not reserved for men, and frankly, it is crazy to expect a living person to be stoic all the time.
Many men have a tendency to follow this illusion, to lie to themselves and make everyone unhappy because they want to maintain this false self-image. They pretend to be someone they're not, that they don't feel what they feel. So then, they need to project their unexpressed emotions and needs onto everyone around them.
The deal is to feel everything and admit to feeling everything. At the same time to become sustainable, stable adults, we learn to process all this reality and meet our needs in a healthy way by solving problems and searching for deeper, better, more personal qualities in life.
Ojcowie mają uczyć, że świat jest czym? To my tworzymy świat.
Ojcowie powinni być sobą, powinni być ludźmi. Ewoluować i uczyć się. Powinni być ciekawi siebie, swoich dzieci i swoich partnerek. Siła i odporność nie są zarezerwowane dla mężczyzn i szczerze mówiąc, szaleństwem jest oczekiwanie, że żywa osoba będzie cały czas stoicka.
Wielu mężczyzn ma tendencję do podążania za tą iluzją, okłamywania siebie i unieszczęśliwiania wszystkich, ponieważ chcą utrzymać ten fałszywy obraz siebie. Udają, że są kimś, kim nie są, że nie czują tego, co czują. Muszą więc rzutować swoje niewyrażone emocje i potrzeby na wszystkich wokół siebie.
Chodzi jednak o to, by czuć wszystko i przyznać się do tego. Jednocześnie, aby stać się zrównoważonymi, stabilnymi dorosłymi, uczymy się przetwarzać całą tę rzeczywistość i zaspokajać nasze potrzeby w zdrowy sposób, rozwiązując problemy i poszukując głębszych, lepszych, bardziej osobistych wartości w życiu.
Ram Dass: The Universe of Compassion – Here and Now Podcast Ep. 231
Hi everyone
I would like to touch on the topic of compassion from the perspective of a person for whom loving the world and people was something completely natural.
Most of the spiritual gurus talks about awakening to compassion, discovering the web of interconnectedness and how powerful an influence we have on each other. And I have to say that to me this is definitely nothing new, I've known and felt it since I was very little, and the training of giving attention, space and understanding while I was doing nothing else for most of my years, raises my anger.
I think completely different teachings could bring me closer to wholeness. Women's experiences in the world shows that our path to freedom should rather be led by recognizing our separateness and respecting boundaries.
Ram Dass's teachings, while incredibly noteworthy and wonderful, are still the words of a privileged man, a man with a PhD from a prestigious university, with extraordinary opportunities for advancement and widely respected. They have no chance to take into account the burden, tiredness and and futility of the efforts of people affected by inequality.
I would like to see and hear about such path from the mouth of an experienced, conscious and empowered woman or an experienced man if he gets the major perspective or came out of adversity with an open heart.
And no more love and compassion. It is not always the truth and liberation. It deviates from experience of humanity that majority of us have and I wanted to express that here.
